Life is good. Still sore but mainly when I bend down, looks like there is a mandatory pedicure in store for me this weekend. :) Eating is going well. I am enjoying being off of "smooshies" and on to soft foods. It's been a lot of scrambles eggs, hummus, greek yogurt, fruit smoothies and sugar-free Popsicles.
This morning I didn't really plan anything and I figured I'd be able to run home after class to have some lunch before going to work but that didn't happen. So I ended up in the dreaded drive-thru. Luckily I had just been texting my sister the day before (the one with gastric bypass) and she had told me that the pinto beans at Taco Bell was her go to fast food option. So I headed there and got the small cup of beans and the fiesta potatoes. I figured they would be soft enough that I'd be fine. I ate all the beans and half the potatoes before I was full. I spent $2.32!! I already had water so I didn't get a drink, which is good because I've been missing Diet Pepsi something fierce and I'm not sure I could have resisted. I am going to wait the 60 days after surgery before trying anything with carbonation. Anyway, I feel good about my choices for food today. Drive-thru was almost an every other day occurrence for me so getting rid of that demon is nice.
My Mom and family are back from Utah today and so tonight I am trying to finish up my homework and reports so I can go down and play this weekend before Mom flies back to Kansas on Monday.
15-20 pounds is always the range of weight that I loose and want people to notice and no one does and I end up getting frustrated and quit. Not this time. It's not even a passing thought in my mind. It it SOO nice to know that I have this awesome band making me not even hungry for the foods that I would cheat with. As long as when I'm hungry, I make the RIGHT food choice, then this is going to be easy peasy! Also I'm scared to eat most other foods right now because getting "stuck" sounds horrible and terrifying.
That's about all that's going on with me this week, I hope everyone has a great weekend!!
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Weigh-in Wednesday
Prep op diet weight: 300.6
Day of surgery weight: 291
Today's weight: 286
I might still be sore as heck and trying to figure this band out but can I just say I LOVVVVE it?? It's a happy day!
Day of surgery weight: 291
Today's weight: 286
I might still be sore as heck and trying to figure this band out but can I just say I LOVVVVE it?? It's a happy day!
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
OWWWW
I'll update tomorrow with my weigh in but I just wanted to update and say, OWWWW, these hiccups are not post op friendly and will NOT go away!!!!!
Meh.
:(
That's all.
Meh.
:(
That's all.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Surgery Story
Here is what I remember about the day of surgery:
My check in was at 9 a.m. We got there about 8:50. We sat in the waiting room for maybe 5 minutes and the receptionist had pulled out my file and had me signing paper after paper. Once all the paperwork was done, I was called back to the surgery prep area. It was the smallest, most cramped area I think I've ever been in. There were two beds separated by a curtain. There was someone on the other side that went back to surgery about 10 minutes after I got back there. They had me lay down and confirm all my information from the paperwork then they had me change into my gown, hair net and..... diaper. Weird. The nurse had me draw a line around where my bra hits so the surgeon didn't make incisions where they would be rubbed.
Once I was changed, they had me hop back into bed and started strapping me with all kinds of things. Blood pressure cuff, IV and leg massager things. I also got a shot in my stomach, I can't remember the name of it... something with an H but it was a blood thinner to prevent clots. I just looked it up, it was Heprin! Anyway, once the nurse had me all prepped and while I waited for the OR nurses, anesthesiologist and Dr. Nirmul to double check on me, she let my Mom come back and sit with me. We sat together for about 15 minutes and once Dr. Nirmul checked on me and the others introduced themselves to me, they rolled me back to the operation room. Luckily one of the OR nurses let me know that my anesthesiologist is very sneaky about giving the "relaxing" drugs before they start strapping my arms down because pretty much the second I got halfway scooted over to the OR bed, I felt the tingle of medicine in my IV. The last thing I remember was looking up at him and saying, "Wow, you are sneaky!" and laughing.
After surgery, I remember being woken up and the nurse starting to ask me questions. I remember not being able to stop chattering my teeth and shivering. I remember a HORRIBLE taste in my mouth, the world's sorest throat and cotton mouth galore. The nurse was very nice and worked with me to get me out of bed and into the bathroom to help me changed into my clothes and settled in the recliner. She then wrapped me in a warmed blanket and gave me a cup of water to sip on. I'm pretty sure, in that moment, I thought I knew that that was what heaven was like. Hahahah Oh, man, drugs mess with my head.
My Mom came back to check on me and after they gave us our post op instructions and about 10 minutes of sitting, they sent us on our way. Mom pulled my car around and they wheeled me out and buckled me in and off we went. Mom says I was very coherent on the drive home and I remember most of it. I remember the first thing I did when I got home was brush my teeth to get rid of the terrible taste in my mouth. I took lortab, a gas x strip and then napped for a while. By that evening I was feeling the gas pain something fierce and Mom and I went for a good 20 minute walk (stroll). It helped a lot with the pain. That night of sleeping I was up every four hours on the dot when the lortab wore off.
The next morning I felt like I got hit by a bus. I was very sore and very slow all day. I stayed right on the lortab all day and Mom and I went out a did some errands and grocery shopping, slowly. Then I came home and napped and watched Disney movies. Who knew that general anesthesia can make every single muscle in your body feel like you had the most intense workout of your life the day before??
Today, I am feeling pretty good. My muscles are still sore but better than yesterday. I am drinking a protein shake right now and am looking forward to some yogurt and smoothies later this afternoon.
Side note, I found out my sister is having her second girl in November!! :)
My check in was at 9 a.m. We got there about 8:50. We sat in the waiting room for maybe 5 minutes and the receptionist had pulled out my file and had me signing paper after paper. Once all the paperwork was done, I was called back to the surgery prep area. It was the smallest, most cramped area I think I've ever been in. There were two beds separated by a curtain. There was someone on the other side that went back to surgery about 10 minutes after I got back there. They had me lay down and confirm all my information from the paperwork then they had me change into my gown, hair net and..... diaper. Weird. The nurse had me draw a line around where my bra hits so the surgeon didn't make incisions where they would be rubbed.
Once I was changed, they had me hop back into bed and started strapping me with all kinds of things. Blood pressure cuff, IV and leg massager things. I also got a shot in my stomach, I can't remember the name of it... something with an H but it was a blood thinner to prevent clots. I just looked it up, it was Heprin! Anyway, once the nurse had me all prepped and while I waited for the OR nurses, anesthesiologist and Dr. Nirmul to double check on me, she let my Mom come back and sit with me. We sat together for about 15 minutes and once Dr. Nirmul checked on me and the others introduced themselves to me, they rolled me back to the operation room. Luckily one of the OR nurses let me know that my anesthesiologist is very sneaky about giving the "relaxing" drugs before they start strapping my arms down because pretty much the second I got halfway scooted over to the OR bed, I felt the tingle of medicine in my IV. The last thing I remember was looking up at him and saying, "Wow, you are sneaky!" and laughing.
After surgery, I remember being woken up and the nurse starting to ask me questions. I remember not being able to stop chattering my teeth and shivering. I remember a HORRIBLE taste in my mouth, the world's sorest throat and cotton mouth galore. The nurse was very nice and worked with me to get me out of bed and into the bathroom to help me changed into my clothes and settled in the recliner. She then wrapped me in a warmed blanket and gave me a cup of water to sip on. I'm pretty sure, in that moment, I thought I knew that that was what heaven was like. Hahahah Oh, man, drugs mess with my head.
My Mom came back to check on me and after they gave us our post op instructions and about 10 minutes of sitting, they sent us on our way. Mom pulled my car around and they wheeled me out and buckled me in and off we went. Mom says I was very coherent on the drive home and I remember most of it. I remember the first thing I did when I got home was brush my teeth to get rid of the terrible taste in my mouth. I took lortab, a gas x strip and then napped for a while. By that evening I was feeling the gas pain something fierce and Mom and I went for a good 20 minute walk (stroll). It helped a lot with the pain. That night of sleeping I was up every four hours on the dot when the lortab wore off.
The next morning I felt like I got hit by a bus. I was very sore and very slow all day. I stayed right on the lortab all day and Mom and I went out a did some errands and grocery shopping, slowly. Then I came home and napped and watched Disney movies. Who knew that general anesthesia can make every single muscle in your body feel like you had the most intense workout of your life the day before??
Today, I am feeling pretty good. My muscles are still sore but better than yesterday. I am drinking a protein shake right now and am looking forward to some yogurt and smoothies later this afternoon.
Side note, I found out my sister is having her second girl in November!! :)
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Surgery: check!
I am sitting in bed watching old episodes of The Office drinking water and chicken broth (in small amounts, of course). I am in relatively little to no pain. I slept a while when I got home and kept a bowl close by in case I got sick but didn't. Dr. Nirmul said surgery went perfectly. I vaguely remember waking up and getting dressed. The car ride home went well and quickly, thankfully. My Mom has been so helpful and I am very grateful for her.
I really am feeling great. I'm still taking the lortab and probably will today and tomorrow just so it doesn't wear off and am in a lot of pain but I don't think I will be. I only have a little discomfort from gas but the gas x strips have been great. The surgeon said to go walking for about 15 minutes later this evening so I'll be doing that tonight.
My sister/Mom got these for me along with a balloon and card and gift card. I'm blessed with a great family! :)
Sorry if this is a little scatterbrained, I'm blaming the drugs. :)
EDIT:: I am definitely experiencing the left shoulder gas pain. It's weird to feel pain in my shoulder from gas... Good thing I can take more gas x strips!
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Day 10 of 14 of pre op
Whooo! In the double numbers of this diet being almost over!! It's hard to stick to this diet when I am still pre op because my stomach isn't telling me it's full. It's saying, "where is all the freakin' food I normally get??"This week went fairly quickly. Being busy helps distract me from how I want to anything and everything. It's gotten to the point where when a commercial comes on TV and it's for something I don't even necessarily like, I catch myself thinking and sometimes saying out loud, "Mmmm, (instert random food here)." My roommate has been getting quite the kick out of it. The other day we were watching TV and I mumbled something about wanting Red Lobster after a commercial and she started cracking up. She knows I don't eat seafood. She asked me if I have even eaten there and I told her only once and I protested the entire time. Hahaha, it's gotten out of control.
I went to my local lap band support group on Thursday. There was only like 6 of us there and the patient advocate said it's because everyone is on summer schedule and we should be up to 10-15 in September. It went really well though, we went around the room and gave our name and if we are pre or post op and any questions that we had. There were three of us there that were pre op and the other three were: 5 weeks, 2 months and like 1 year out. It was a nice group of women, I think I'm going to like going every month. :)
I got a call from the surgery center yesterday with my surgery time. For now my check-in is at 9 a.m. on Thursday, unless someone cancels, which will move me up. I like the 9 a.m. slot. It will be enough time to sleep in a little but not enough time to be starving before I get there.
Also, yesterday I got all my grocery shopping done for post op. I picked up my prescriptions. One liquid lortab in tropical fruit flavor, one liquid antibiotic in strawberry flavor and one oral dissolving tablet for nausea. Can I just tell you that somewhere around the age of 8-10 I decided that any and all medicine that I have to get will be in pill form and I will figure out how to take them even if I choke to death on it because I HATE liquid medicine that much. I have very vivid memories of massive fits being thrown when it came time for medicine when it was liquid. And I do mean MASSIVE fits. Soooo, this should be interesting... Haha!
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This coming week is going to be VERY busy. This weekend I am just kind of getting random things done around the house, cleaning up and what not and then Monday afternoon I am going to work and not leaving til Wednesday afternoon. Yup, that's right. My job is working with this little boy with autism and I've been working with him and his family for the last two, almost three years now. The Mom is a teacher and single Mother of four, (11, 10, 7, 18 months). She is paying me out of pocket to watch the kids for a few days while she goes to a training conference for her school. I am super comfortable with the kids and they listen to me really well so I'm not at all worried about that. In fact, I am a little appreciative because I will be so busy this week will fly by! Monday afternoon/evening we will just hang out and then Tuesday morning I have class so I'll pack the kids up and drop them off at their grandma's til I finish and then we are going to go down to my sister in law's so they can play/swim with my nephews (16, 13, 11, 10, 9) and I can see my Mom because she will have flown in on Monday. Wednesday will be the same of packing them up, dropping off at grandma's while I have class and them picking them up and just hanging out until their other-side grandpa gets off work and takes over because then I will be driving back down to my sister in laws to pick up Mom and come back to my house to spend the night and be ready for surgery the next morning! Whew, I'm worn out just explaining this week! Haha
I'm not sure I'll be updating again before surgery but I will definitely be updating as soon as I'm moving around after surgery! I will try to remember as much as I can to tell you all about it! Have a great coming week, everyone!!
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Day 7 of 14 of pre op
So I had my pre op appointment yesterday. I was there for a surprisingly long time (About two hours). At first it was a group (9 of us) and we were taken back to hear a presentation and then we were taken back to the waiting room to wait for one on ones with the surgeon. I didn't have many questions and I feel like I am really prepped for surgery but it was nice to meet the surgeon before the actual day of surgery. They gave me a little goody bag with a diary/pen, measuring cup and a one minute timer to help with in-between bite timing. I'm think the timer will be getting the most use. The surgeon was hopeful that since I recovered so well and quickly from getting my gallbladder out a few years ago that this will be similar for me.
I got a note for school and took it in to my teacher and she immediately starting counting out how many days it was that I would miss and said "Well, it doesn't put you over the attendance policy, so that's good." I had a gut feeling that she wouldn't be excusing it. I bet if I make a big deal out of it and raise a little attention to it, she would excuse it but I just don't think it's worth my time. I will just have to be careful all semester to not go over.
This week I got the amazing news that I passed my first Literary test at 120 words per minute!! I have to pass three tests at 98% accuracy to move on to the next speed class. Passing the first test at any speed is always the hardest because of the mental "this is too fast, I can't get it" thought process. I have to get to 180 to pass out of my Literary class. I hope that even with surgery coming up and missing a few days, it won't set me back too much!
Monday and Tuesday I made a delicious snack that was all veggies.. so guilt free! I peeled and sliced squash, sliced orange bell peppers (my favorite) and about a third of an onion and sauteed it in EVOO (extra virgin olive oil). I just used a little seasoned salt and pepper and it was Mmm, mmm, good! I even made it again that night with my dinner.
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Today, I went to lunch with a couple of girls from my court reporting program. So tonight I'll be having a protein shake for dinner. I got a salad with chicken and when they both ordered dessert I opted out. I did however, take ONE bite of both of theirs (had to try both!) I don't feel bad because I could have ordered a whole one!
When we were at lunch my friend said, "A week from tomorrow is surgery, are you ready?" The floor dropped out from under me after hearing her say it that way. HOLY CRAP, that is soon!! Ugh. I have to get over these nerves! I get a little flutter of panic every time I think about it. Ugh.
Today I got a killer migraine. Thank goodness the family that I work for's Mom is a teacher and off work right now and she could take him to speech therapy for me. I pretty much have slept on and off since coming home from lunch with the girls. Maybe it's a result of the nerves? Maybe I need a Prozac? haha
I got a note for school and took it in to my teacher and she immediately starting counting out how many days it was that I would miss and said "Well, it doesn't put you over the attendance policy, so that's good." I had a gut feeling that she wouldn't be excusing it. I bet if I make a big deal out of it and raise a little attention to it, she would excuse it but I just don't think it's worth my time. I will just have to be careful all semester to not go over.
This week I got the amazing news that I passed my first Literary test at 120 words per minute!! I have to pass three tests at 98% accuracy to move on to the next speed class. Passing the first test at any speed is always the hardest because of the mental "this is too fast, I can't get it" thought process. I have to get to 180 to pass out of my Literary class. I hope that even with surgery coming up and missing a few days, it won't set me back too much!
Monday and Tuesday I made a delicious snack that was all veggies.. so guilt free! I peeled and sliced squash, sliced orange bell peppers (my favorite) and about a third of an onion and sauteed it in EVOO (extra virgin olive oil). I just used a little seasoned salt and pepper and it was Mmm, mmm, good! I even made it again that night with my dinner.
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Today, I went to lunch with a couple of girls from my court reporting program. So tonight I'll be having a protein shake for dinner. I got a salad with chicken and when they both ordered dessert I opted out. I did however, take ONE bite of both of theirs (had to try both!) I don't feel bad because I could have ordered a whole one!
When we were at lunch my friend said, "A week from tomorrow is surgery, are you ready?" The floor dropped out from under me after hearing her say it that way. HOLY CRAP, that is soon!! Ugh. I have to get over these nerves! I get a little flutter of panic every time I think about it. Ugh.
Today I got a killer migraine. Thank goodness the family that I work for's Mom is a teacher and off work right now and she could take him to speech therapy for me. I pretty much have slept on and off since coming home from lunch with the girls. Maybe it's a result of the nerves? Maybe I need a Prozac? haha
Monday, June 10, 2013
Day 5 of 14 of pre op
Things are going normal. Pretty boring weekend. I stuck to the diet will and I even found the V8 juice with caffeine. It doesn't taste amazing but it gives me the caffeine I need so I drink it.
Today is my sister in law's birthday so I went down to Queen Creek to make a birthday cake for her. I wasn't even tempted to cheat. I brought a shake and tomatoes and celery. If I felt the need to snack I had one of those. My sister in law and I like to make personalized birthday cakes for each member of the family. We have kind of played with fondant and other things to try and make them cool. They are obviously by no means professional, just something fun. She requested a scrabble board cake. Very challenging! Haha It definitely didn't come out how I pictured it, but she liked it.
Tomorrow is my pre op appointment and I was just called to be reminded of it about an hour ago. I had NO idea that my full payment was due tomorrow! I am scrambling. Mom and I were not prepared for that. I'm REALLY hoping that we don't have to push surgery back. Mom already has plane tickets bought... I'm sure it will work out fine. I'm just mildly freaking out.
I did something last night for the first time, I made and ate Tilapia! I DON'T eat fish but I was only on day 3 and already getting tired of chicken. To make it, I sprayed the skillet with non stick spray and heated it to medium heat. I rinse and patted dry the fish, salted and peppered both sides and threw it on. I cooked it for about 4 minutes on one side after squeezing lemon juice on it and flipped it and cooked it another three minutes. Only a few of the bites were really fishy tasting but all in all, I'd make it again.
Do you guys eat fish? How do you cook it?
Day 5 is almost over. Thank goodness this pre op diet is actually going fairly quickly!
Today is my sister in law's birthday so I went down to Queen Creek to make a birthday cake for her. I wasn't even tempted to cheat. I brought a shake and tomatoes and celery. If I felt the need to snack I had one of those. My sister in law and I like to make personalized birthday cakes for each member of the family. We have kind of played with fondant and other things to try and make them cool. They are obviously by no means professional, just something fun. She requested a scrabble board cake. Very challenging! Haha It definitely didn't come out how I pictured it, but she liked it.
Tomorrow is my pre op appointment and I was just called to be reminded of it about an hour ago. I had NO idea that my full payment was due tomorrow! I am scrambling. Mom and I were not prepared for that. I'm REALLY hoping that we don't have to push surgery back. Mom already has plane tickets bought... I'm sure it will work out fine. I'm just mildly freaking out.
I did something last night for the first time, I made and ate Tilapia! I DON'T eat fish but I was only on day 3 and already getting tired of chicken. To make it, I sprayed the skillet with non stick spray and heated it to medium heat. I rinse and patted dry the fish, salted and peppered both sides and threw it on. I cooked it for about 4 minutes on one side after squeezing lemon juice on it and flipped it and cooked it another three minutes. Only a few of the bites were really fishy tasting but all in all, I'd make it again.
Do you guys eat fish? How do you cook it?
Day 5 is almost over. Thank goodness this pre op diet is actually going fairly quickly!
Friday, June 7, 2013
Day 2 of 14 of pre op
Well yesterday wasn't fun. It wasn't terrible though. My protein shakes are really tasty so that helps. I drank three and a half smart waters yesterday. So about that's over 14 cups of water. I think all that water really helped me with the hunger. About 2pm I got slammed with a caffeine headache. I actually broke and had a Diet Pepsi. :( But I was texting with a friend and she told me that V8 makes a sugar-free drink with caffeine. She is so helpful and supportive, truly the best friend I could ever ask for. I've been in Arizona while she is in Kansas for the last three years and we haven't grown apart at all. Oops, back on topic.. Haha. Anyway, I am going to go look for it when I go grocery shopping today.
I am going to go to Sprouts, even though, I have kind of been boycotting them since they bought out my FAVORITE produce store, Sunflower. Spouts will have the biggest selection of veggies for me to pick from. I plan on buying quite a bit and cutting them all up and putting them in baggies for easy grabbing when I am hungry and need something.
I made yesterday a lot harder on myself than I needed to. I didn't have much produce and basically no veggies, which is unlimited on this diet. Stupid. Yesterday I was fairly busy, though. I spent most of the day with my new roommate who just moved to the area. We ran a couple errands and I showed her around the our immediate area. I remember what it was like when I moved here and didn't know a single person so I figured I could help her out. But we were so busy helping to get her furniture that I didn't get home to eat dinner until 8:30pm! This is where I got bad, instead of just cooking the chicken that I had defrosted and marinating in the fridge when my other roommate was going to get Applebee's-to-go and offered to get me the salad we always get, since it's two for twenty. I said yes and got the Oriental Salad but asked for grilled chicken instead of crispy. When we got the food home, we realized there wasn't a single drop of dressing in it or on the side. I guess that's karma for trying to cheat on my first day... Haha! So I ended up lightly drizzling it with my homemade low fat ranch and picked all the chicken out and then ate about a third of the salad while avoiding the low mien noodles. All in all it wasn't too bad, the dressing is the most unhealthy part of that salad. It's all romaine lettuce, cabbage and carrots with low mien noodles and almonds.
But today is a new start! It's only 10am and I've already had a whole smart water and a protein shake. I'm going to go grocery shopping once I finish homework and shower. Whooo!
I am going to go to Sprouts, even though, I have kind of been boycotting them since they bought out my FAVORITE produce store, Sunflower. Spouts will have the biggest selection of veggies for me to pick from. I plan on buying quite a bit and cutting them all up and putting them in baggies for easy grabbing when I am hungry and need something.
I made yesterday a lot harder on myself than I needed to. I didn't have much produce and basically no veggies, which is unlimited on this diet. Stupid. Yesterday I was fairly busy, though. I spent most of the day with my new roommate who just moved to the area. We ran a couple errands and I showed her around the our immediate area. I remember what it was like when I moved here and didn't know a single person so I figured I could help her out. But we were so busy helping to get her furniture that I didn't get home to eat dinner until 8:30pm! This is where I got bad, instead of just cooking the chicken that I had defrosted and marinating in the fridge when my other roommate was going to get Applebee's-to-go and offered to get me the salad we always get, since it's two for twenty. I said yes and got the Oriental Salad but asked for grilled chicken instead of crispy. When we got the food home, we realized there wasn't a single drop of dressing in it or on the side. I guess that's karma for trying to cheat on my first day... Haha! So I ended up lightly drizzling it with my homemade low fat ranch and picked all the chicken out and then ate about a third of the salad while avoiding the low mien noodles. All in all it wasn't too bad, the dressing is the most unhealthy part of that salad. It's all romaine lettuce, cabbage and carrots with low mien noodles and almonds.
But today is a new start! It's only 10am and I've already had a whole smart water and a protein shake. I'm going to go grocery shopping once I finish homework and shower. Whooo!
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Day 1 of 14 of pre-op
All right, folks.
Day one, numero uno, a fresh start, the new beginning. Finally.
I weighed in today. I was 300.6 this morning. It's not my highest (that was 312) but I think the last time I willingly got on my own scale I was 285. Last night I cleaned out my fridge and pantry. No point in keeping food around that I can't eat and will go bad without me noticing.
This was my fridge last night. I am going grocery shopping tomorrow for more produce. Right now I am sitting in class on break drinking my protein shake and water. I took my gummy daily vitamins this morning. (Which are delish, by the way.) I snapped a couple of before pictures this morning before I left for class. I rarely take pictures of anything more than my face. So looking at these picture, I realize that I am much bigger than I picture myself in my head.
Oh well, at least the numbers are only going to go down from here!!!
Day one, numero uno, a fresh start, the new beginning. Finally.
I weighed in today. I was 300.6 this morning. It's not my highest (that was 312) but I think the last time I willingly got on my own scale I was 285. Last night I cleaned out my fridge and pantry. No point in keeping food around that I can't eat and will go bad without me noticing.
This was my fridge last night. I am going grocery shopping tomorrow for more produce. Right now I am sitting in class on break drinking my protein shake and water. I took my gummy daily vitamins this morning. (Which are delish, by the way.) I snapped a couple of before pictures this morning before I left for class. I rarely take pictures of anything more than my face. So looking at these picture, I realize that I am much bigger than I picture myself in my head.
Oh well, at least the numbers are only going to go down from here!!!
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Nerves are kicking in!
On Thursday (6th) I start my pre-op diet. Next Tuesday (11th) I meet with the surgeon for my pre-op appointment. That next Thursday (14th) I go to a support group. On Monday (17th) Mom flies in to be my nurse and the 20th is surgery! This month is going to fly by. At any given moment I am either having a full on panic attack or I am completely at peace and ready to go! My panic isn't that I'm doubtful. I don't even have words to express my panic. I called Mom earlier to talk about it and I almost started bawling. I held it back just because I didn't want her to worry. And because I know I have no valid worries about the surgery. Well, no valid worries about the after effects of the surgery because I am ready for all those changes. It's just the surgery itself that is making me panic, which I know is silly because it is such a routine surgery and the risks are minimal but I have always been the kind of person that when I have a headache I go through a checklist before I reach for the Advil:
Am I hungry? Nope.
Do I need some caffeine? Nope.
Am I dehydrated? Nope.
Is it the environment/noise/smells giving me a headache? Nope.
Okay, take a couple Advil.
I guess I have kind of done a similar checklist of trying to loose weight without the band for the last 8 years of my life and now I am finally reaching for the Advil (surgery).
I'll update on Thursday with my pre-op diet weight!
Am I hungry? Nope.
Do I need some caffeine? Nope.
Am I dehydrated? Nope.
Is it the environment/noise/smells giving me a headache? Nope.
Okay, take a couple Advil.
I guess I have kind of done a similar checklist of trying to loose weight without the band for the last 8 years of my life and now I am finally reaching for the Advil (surgery).
I'll update on Thursday with my pre-op diet weight!
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